| i remember best friends
i remember grammar school
i remember my father and my grandfather
i remember my first kiss
i remember my first heartache
i remember the playground and four squares
i remember my first time on stage
i live for being on stage
i live for weekends
i live for cuddling and kisses
i live for laughing my heart out
i live for the beach and for summer
i live for happiness and to be lazy
i dream of moving out
i dream of my wedding day
i dream of my own family
i dream of my dream job
i dream of college and growing up
i dream to dream
i remember the past and i dream of the future
but i live for now, and i believe in it all |
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| life is chaos
and we are crazy
but we live in motion
as the world spins you are mine
and that is enough constant goodbyes and broken hearts
these are what our teenage years are made of dream the night away my dear
because tonight will be yours
from all the craziness that you call life
your dreams will take you to where you want
you will love and you will believe
and dream my dear, dream away |
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| to those who said we wouldn't make it
a kick in the face
to those who believed in us
a sign of gratitude
to all of those who don't know us yet
a sigh of dispair
because we are unlike anything I have ever met i am a girl
i am a believer
but i know reality
i love to learn
but i despise going to school
i love money and love working for it
but i hate the concept of it
i am a dreamer
i dream of getting engaged
and my wedding day
and having a family
i am a dancer
i dance my heart out
and i live to perform on stage
i love black and white
but i love color too
i love i love lucy
but i love gossip girl
i love to party
but i hate to party
i hate being a teenager
but as everyone, im scared to grow up
i love my freedom
but i constantly question it
i am in love
but its scary all at once
i am a daughter
i am a dreamer
i am a dancer
i am a sister
i am a friend
i am a hater
but i am a lover
i have loved, love, and will love.
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| I haven't written in here since May. And that was a long time ago. And I was writing in my notebook the other day and I kept asking myself, why don't I? But then I realized that all the times I've written in here were because of a massive change in my mood. Because of an event or spark that changed me, that upset me, or that excited me. Within the last five months, I haven't been upset or changed greatly. Because I have finally found complete comfort in my life. I'm happier these days, I walk a little faster, and I look up a great deal more. Life has finally calmed down so that I can live it. I feel safe, I feel warm, I feel content. I feel so content, I don't need to write to get out my feelings anymore because I know them. I am no longer unsure of what I feel or what they feel. I know. I know that I am happy and that life has changed for the better. So maybe I will write in here more rather than my notebook, or napkins, or whatever else is in front of me. But know this, that anything I say is coming from a place I have never felt before. I have found where I want to be. Not forever I'm sure, but for now. I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. |
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| it's a long way down, and it's a leap of faith
but i'm never giving up
because i know we have a once-in-a-lifetime love if i could dive into your arms
i would go headfirst
with all my power
and never think of it twice <3 |
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